Thank heaven for journaling.I am currently in a little bit of shock. Someone close to me died last night. It came out of the blue, and it was unexpected. It's moments like these when you truly recognize how short life really is. Sometimes it's only these moments which snap you back into reality and you think more deeply about what you do on a daily basis and how you treat others. Have I told them I love them and appreciate all they do for me? Have I been kind to them to the best of my abilities? You may never see that person again, it can happen in an instant. Have you made your peace with God? These are things that are so easy to overlook, to ignore. In the bustle of life it's easy to let life slide by. ESP if you have a life like mine, where for now, there is little tragedy. I can forget my own feelings, and how I truly feel inside because I don't voice my feelings.
It's sad really, that it takes a horrible thing to make you realize again how blessed you are. I can walk on my own, I can go on vacations, (if I had money that is, so I guess that's not completely true) I can dance, and sing, and laugh. I have a family and an amazing boyfriend. I have a God who loves me and always provides and protects me. I believe that. I'll believe that even if I lose everything else, and with my last fatal breath.
Sorry this post is so heavy. Sometimes though, I guess life is heavy. I'm glad that I don't have to take life too seriously either as well. I realize the depth of life, but not that I have to be stuck up or strict about things. I can laugh in the hard times. As this person who recently passed used to tell me, it's much easier to laugh than to cry. And I'll laugh with joy for all that I've been given in this life I still have. Even when it sucks, I'm still a blessed woman